9.18 am MST, 2nd
January 2026.
Day 2.
Thank You for loving me. Thank You that my mind has not twisted. I thank You for every single lesson You teach me, or You permit life to teach me. I am so grateful that You open me up to listen and be corrected. I know my ego gets bruised and I get pained, but I am just so glad I can hear, and I believe that there is always ‘better’ than where I am or who I think I am.
I am sorry for all the times I have challenged You by complaining or wanting things at my own time. I am sorry for questioning Your power and complaining about how You have allowed life to be for me. Yet, I cannot deny Your Hand over my life. I have an unwavering conviction that the reason people can describe me as a strong person is because of You; the power You graciously express through me is what others have come to call strength. Meanwhile, I am being carried. I constantly say that I am a living, breathing, consistent proof of my name- “Aanuoluwapo”, Your Mercies are truly in abundance, and I enjoy it per second.
I have stood in complete darkness and a silence I often described as abandonment, yet You somehow made me know it wasn’t the end. I felt nothing yet somehow still felt You through every dreadful moment.
I thank You for everything I considered a win and those that I overlooked because they weren’t on the list of things I expected or because I was too caught up to be aware of them. Moments you saved my life, snatching me out of the hold of fear and delivering me from self-sabotaging behaviors and selfishness. In moments of anger, I still heard or felt Your Spirit. One thing I will always acknowledge and cherish, is that You often gave me instructions even when I was so angry. Then I would get more upset, wondering why things are being demanded of me in the midst of pain and discomfort. I often saw the essence only in hindsight. I am baffled that I ever forget how Magnificent You are. And how in all the Power You possess, Love is THE anchor. Your Love for me and how You want me to grow in You; it is both tough and soft. There is no plan I may want for myself that would be better than what You want for me. Your desire is good so, how does my limited mind and sight oppose that?
I am sorry for my disobedience- whether I obeyed after kicking and screaming or I procrastinated until it seemed like I ‘spoiled’ the plan, I am really sorry.
Another profound reminder is that You exist outside of time: what massive comfort this brought me when I was prompted. Who sets the boundaries for time? Who gave me deadlines for the things I lament that I ought to have achieved? Remembering this truth is both liberating and motivating- to know excellence is attainable without unrealistic pressure. When You give an assignment or impress a goal upon my heart, You are definitely able and ready to equip me with resources, including time. Time is a tool and not a punishment, I THANK YOU!
Thank You for 2025. Thank You for 2026. I stepped into just another day when the calendar changed; still, I cannot deny the light that came into the year with me. And for that I am eternally grateful. There is no promise of perfection, and the battle may still rage, but I have a renewed persuasion that in You, it’s all alright.
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