From my heart

I am so beautiful it scares the hell out of me

I always forget though so I settle

And I hide in the dark because I don’t want anyone to notice me and it’s safe in my corner

But I know it’s a lie

Because what I really want is to be seen;

To blossom under the right attention

To love fiercely and without borders and to give all the light I carry

To be given the chance to pour it all into something or someone

To live life breaking down every wall

And pulling off everything that has become a yoke about my neck

To raise my hands and my face to the sun and smile

To not be afraid that I’ll end up alone or never good enough

To no longer suppress the undeniable hurt of rejection and abuse

Because I’ve learnt to dissolve my feelings of shame and let them pass with time

To embrace my inadequacies because no one was created to be perfect

To stop putting myself under so much pressure that hurts my head

And to realize that I’m free……….like I’M FREE!  Like seriously……….I’M REALLY FREE!

I ended an amazing conversation with a good friend, faced my laptop and poured the above out in like 2 minutes. Before I made up my mind to over-edit or judge myself or fully understand what came out of my heart I decided to publish here. I hope it helps someone…………..

The image makes me smile so I used it.