……and the day before that
What makes this information special is because I’m
trying to be on a diet and I’ve built a slow yet steady healthy pattern for a
while
But I failed the past days- no form of exercise
and I piled on the calories
I have an excuse – it started with a bad day…..
It was more like a series of unfortunate events
and rather than vent or do something drastic to cool off, I settled for ice
cream
When it was over and I started getting a tummy
ache, I realised the folly of my action
I was even too ashamed to work out and jump off
what I had consumed
So I fell into a shallow darkness (shallow because
I slapped myself out of it) and it made me think about how we ‘act out’
and generally misbehave while blaming our lack of self-control on -“I had a bad day!, “I’m depressed”, “Ï am
already fat so why try?”, “I’m ill so
let me just indulge today”, “I’m desperate and there is no time”, “It’s not my
fault things are like this”, "people are so inconsiderate"- and then engage in baseless activities that
can only beget feelings of shame and failure.
Well I’ve come to realize the hard way that it’s
all a heap of horse manure when we indulge in things we know have negative
consequences; when we go back to a habit we have been delivered from or generally
express some form of bad behaviour because we’re upset: who told you that the
universe and her inhabitants care that much about your bad day or life? That is
not sufficient to make silly decisions that affect your progress and maybe
selfishly affect others.
Do you think we’ll understand why you yelled at a genuinely
irritating potential client in a moment of frustration; why you threw that
phone against the wall in the presence of people; why you broke that man’s side
view mirror even though he deserved it and sometimes we even go as far as
throwing caution to the wind and call that ridiculous person from your past
because you’re bored or sad or you feel they would make you feel better……FOUL!
You just opened the door for a domino effect of more horse manure!!
No excuses, if you’re having a bad day, suck it
up! I don’t intend to be smooth and diplomatic, this is me talking to myself
and anyone else who reads this; we already possess the strength to say NO to
what would make us hang our heads a few minutes, hours or days’ time. We are
not children who can get away with throwing an occasional tantrum, sulking or be
pampered with candy when something unpleasant happens. This is real life and
we’re expected to take responsibility – there MAY be exceptions but sometimes these
exceptions become an upward review in dress size 6 or 9 months later, or that
drunken text produced you a crown of friend with benefit or needing an AA
meeting and that potential client you yelled at completely destroyed your
reputation on Instagram or that person whose window you broke becomes your future
in-law (extreme I know) but nothing is impossible here!
Just calm down! Seriously! Decide and carry out
realistic steps to try solve whatever the problem is and if you need a break, develop
some other healthy activity to distract you – Pray, sleep, eat an apple, sing,
go dancing or walking, watch a movie, call a good old friend, call your mother,
stay at the office and finish everybody’s assignment for them (Lol) ANYTHING
BUT stupid behaviour you will regret later. All the Best!
By
the way, I’m yet to fully recover from my fall but I don’t intend to be down
any longer…..this post was my first point of liberation! And thank you for
coming back after so long to read……. XOXO
