Running into an Ex

I walked past that window and I saw you

My heart stopped for a brief second.

What do I do?

You had seen me before I even spotted you and you fixed your gaze on me

So sure that I’d see you eventually

Standing self-assured, I can almost feel you smirk

You enjoyed my discomfort, the awkwardness I felt, how I struggled between the decision to walk away or come say hi

I shake my head physically, trying to rid my mind of the mental images of times spent with you

Nights we spent laughing; alone or with company

Day time we shared over a plate of lunch or simply because we had time for each other

I can’t forget how interesting those times were regardless of how high maintenance you were

You always had a reason to spend money; birthdays, public holidays and just because we are alive.

I had control of your tantrums some days,

When the truth is you only allowed me believe I had control

You being by my side somehow made me bold; beyond that it made me proud

Like I belonged to the ‘pack’; you made me look cool……

…….someone touches you and I quickly look away, breaking away from your gaze

As I walk away I think of life before you

How I had heard things…..sometimes what you’ll consider normal stories other times negative reports

Reports of what you had done to some people.

And so we met, not because I wanted a challenge

It just happened….like it was the right time.

Years down the line and I knew there was something off

It wasn’t a mutually beneficial relationship and I was the one not gaining

So I made a choice and I have stood by it

Regardless of how hard it may seem because you gave some form of comfort

With all your issues I admired you for one thing; you were fiercely loyal

Always available when I needed you.

I still think of you but I’m enjoying life without you

Goodbye Mr. Daniels……..